A flaw in our system

Our law suite is finally over and now that my blog is private I feel like I can write a little about the some of the things we found out during questioning in regards to our accident.

-The girl who hit my mom and I is developmentally delayed, she has some form of 

autism/ aspergers. 

-She was only able to complete as far as grade 6 of her schooling. (A grade 6 student is usually 11 or 12 years old, they are not even old enough to have a learners permit.)

-She is unable to work so receives AISH (assured income for the severely handicapped). 

-She failed her drivers test three times before finally passing on her fourth try 

-She is still driving today with a clean record. No charges were pressed as a result of our accident.

These things don't make sense to me, they baffle my mind and I think they are wrong! 

We have a false sense of security in our society, 

just posses a lot of questions!

Deana Sabey

On September 6th Dahlin's Grandma Sabey passed away. 

She was one of the strongest, toughest, most encouraging ladies I had the pleasure of knowing. 

From the very first time I met her I felt nothing but acceptance, love, and concern from her. 

She provided a wonderful example of how to raise a family who love and care for each other.

I am grateful for the influence she had and will continue to have on my life as well as my children, but especially Dahlin's.
We will miss her!!

Laiken turns 2

So i know this is quiet late as Laiken actually turned two on September 15th, but I wanna document what he is like at two.

-has an afternoon nap for about 2 hours
-loves to copy everything you say
-sleeps through the night
-loves to sing Old Mcdonalds has a farm, Monkeys on the Bed, and Sleeping Bunnies
-loves going to nursery
-loves his momma! Always wants me to do everything for him and wants to always be by my side
-loves his chocolate milk sippy cups
-loves to eat pizza, Alphagettis, lucky charms, cheese strings and fruit loops
-throws the odd temper tantrum when he is tired (not nearly as bad as when he was 18 months)
-favorite movie is Finding Nemo and Diego
-loves to play with trucks and dinosaurs
-loves to play with Syler and is so excited to pick him up from school everyday
-loves to play with his cousin Jack and Sawyer
-loves to wrestle with his dad and Syler
-loves to give people nuckle sanwiches
-loves playing at Grandma and Grandpa's house
-he can be quite bossy, and his favorite sayings are "stop it", "don't touch me" "don't do that"
-Bites! We are working on this, but he is being a stinker about it!!!
-loves to play with balls and run around, he is very energetic
-loves riding his strider and does so good at it
-loves to play in the water, whether it is in the tub or washing dishes
-has a great sense of humour

Laiken is such a sweet boy and I absolutely adore him!
He melts my heart with his little smile and laugh and we honestly can just hang out and play all day together.

Laiken will always be important to me. I love him so much, he came to me as a ray of sunshine in very dark times. He is my angel sent from heaven and I still hold onto that every single day. I cherish him and think that he is so special! Our family is so blessed to have him in it!!!

3 years ago

To commemorate October 7th we decided to make a trip to Waterton as a family.
It seemed fitting to do something that my mom loved together.
So we hiked Bears Hump.
The kids did so amazing, I don't think any of them complained the whole way up, not even Alli ;)

I have the most amazing family!

No one could ever comprehend how much each and everyone of these smiles mean to me.

This is us rising above the trails and tribulations we have been faced with.
This is us standing strong and steady.
And this is us cleaving to each other.

and these are the products of that...

Its so gratifying to see our family grow and flourish, to see the influence of my mom live on through us. To see my moms legacy continue.

We also did something really special this year.

I really wanted to do something that reinforces that fact that even though my mom is gone, she is still here, that she lives and that someday we will be reunited with her. 

What a hard concept for 2, 3, 5, 6, and 8 year olds to understand... not to mention this 27 year old. 

So we wrote notes to my mom and sent them to heaven in balloons. Everyone wrote their own note and then together we sent them away.

I loved it!

The kids loved it, except Jack who cried uncontrollably when his balloon flew away :)

 Syler hasn't stopped talking about whether Nana got his note in Heaven yet.

They are so cute!!!

I cant believe three years has already gone by, I still miss my mom each and every day!

I dont know how I would get through life without the knowledge that someday we will be reunited! That she still lives and that families are forever!

No one knows.

I dont know what it feels like to loose a spouse.

 I dont know what it feels like to loose a father.

I dont know what it feels like to loose a living child.

and no one knows what it feels like to be me.

No one knows what it is like to wake up every morning knowing it could have been me 

and no one knows what it feels like knowing it wasn't.

No one knows the devastating sorrow or the heart wrenching pain that I feel

No one knows the debilitating fear

No one knows the yearning and the missing 

No one know what it feels like to be me,

 except my savior.

He knows

Syler starts Kindergarten

Yesterday when I was dropping Syler off at school he said, "Mom I really like school, but I am sorry I don't get to spend as much time with you."

He is so cute, I love him so much! Syler and I spent a lot of years together just the two of us, and we have a very special relationship. We have been through some very hard things together and I feel like he has taken care of me as much as I have taken care of him. It is hard letting him go into the world with other people influencing his life so much!
    Thankfully he has been going to school for a month now and he has LOVED everyday of it! He goes every Monday and Wednesday and it seems to be the perfect amount. He comes home singing some song, or saying some rhyme about how to do a letter. I have to say I am glad he loves it so much, otherwise I don't think I would have the heart to make him go. 

My little Kindergartner

Laiken seems to be enjoying the time we are spending together just the two of us, but he is excited everyday to go and pick him up. They really love eachother!

Kite Boarding in St Kitts

One thing Dahlin really wanted to do while in St Kitts was learn to kite board. Dahlin had originally wanted both of us to learn, but once we got there and talked to the guy we decided it was to expensive. So just Dahlin learnt, which I think ended up being the best decision ever!

 They first spent some time just learning how to fly the kite on the ground.

 Then they moved to flying the kite in the water. Then Dahlin learnt how to just body glide through the water with the kite pulling him. 

And finally he got to strap the board on. 

 He had a few bad spills...

He eventually got the hang of it and ended up doing great