Do we Know What We have?
After listening to an array of answers I couldn't shake the thought (which was no way related to where the lesson was going) that no one truly knows what they have until it is gone. This may sound cold, bitter, ungrateful maybe, but it really is what I believe.Let me expand, I knew I had an awesome mom ever since I was a little girl, I loved to sit and talk with her for hours about anything and everything. I always knew that her children where the most important thing to her. She was patient and kind. When I was in high school and other girls where hating on there moms I never did, I genuinely really liked her. But she was always mine, I didn't know anything else and in my mind she would always be there. Now that she is gone I appreciate so many other qualities about her. I realize now that she was never just my mom, she was my dearest friend, my confidant, my biggest supporter, she was my teacher. She was the greatest example I could have of what a woman should be. She was Nana, and I was never alone as long as she was here. I know now how lucky I am to have such an amazing mom because I have spent the last three years missing every little thing about her.
I am realizing that sometimes we do the same thing with stages in our lives. We become so focused on what we are looking forward to that we forget to really appreciate or recognize what we have right now. I am so guilty for doing this!! My sweet Syler turned 6 on the 21st. SIX, when did that happen? Somehow the last three years have slipped by, with dealing with the passing of my mom, the marriage of my dad, sister, and brother, the birth of Laiken, the divorce of my dad and every other distracting time consuming thing that has happened in the last 3 years I don't feel like I have taken the time to really appreciate what I have.
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Syler is sooo amazing! Despite all the drama that goes on in our lives he has thrived.
He is kind, considerate, and supportive. He is helpful around the house with chores and his little brother.
He is so sympathetic and is always concerned with other peoples feelings.
He is super smart with a thirst for learning.
He is adventurous while always being a little cautious. He is athletic but very humble about it.
He is even tempered rarely acting up.
He is also so affectionate and sweet, and expresses his love freely.
He is hilarious and loves to laugh.
He is not afraid to voice his opinion and tell you when he thinks you are in the wrong.
He is such a good big brother, and a good son. He is all of our friend.
I feel so blessed to have Syler as my child, he has taught me so many things in life. I feel like we have been learning together these past 6 years and he has taught me just as many things as I have taught him. I really adore him and I hope that even as he grows he will always hug and kiss me good night and tell me how much he loves me. He will always be the bright dark eyed boy with a sparkle in his eye to me.
